It has been a long week. My last day off was last Friday and my next day off will be tomorrow. It has been a tough week as well as I had to get my balance back due to the bully situation at work. He leaves me alone and I do not have to work there but it still lingers somehow in my presence.
Have also been acutely aware of my self-harming behaviour. My whole mouth is sore inside as I bite away on my lips and I also bite the tips of my thumbs. Strangely that always seems to be more when I just came out of a difficult situation and feel more balanced again. I wonder more and more about why that is and why I just can not get a grip on it.
I think that is what I want to work on in the counselling: Fight the self-harming tendencies and learn to set boundaries without freaking. I had to wait since last April for this appointment and all in all I have been trying to get counselling for 2 1/2 years.
You know if you break your leg and you would have to wait for 2 1/2 years for help everyone would be appalled. But if you have broken your soul waiting for 2 years does seem to be normal. But it has as bad health implications as the broken leg. Maybe even more.
Well I will not worry about that now. I will concentrate on getting on with my healing!!!
Seems ridiculous to wait that long to heal your soul..But I’m glad you finally got in…I hope it goes well for you…As always…XOXOXOXO