You Tube Tuesday: Ashira Morgenstern ~ Song for the inner child

Originating at Its Tiger Time, You Tube Tuesday is a day set aside for sharing your favorite video.  Feel free to join in and let’s have fun seeing how creative us bloggers can be!  Each month Josh will highlight a selected video and present the “You Tube Tuesday” Award.  If you participate, please remember to leave your link in the Linky Tool that is available at his page.

I have been posting a lot about awareness and music about abuse so now it is time to post something for our children within. I found this lovely song from Ashira Morgenstern :

thanks for the video to 10andnot9  via http://www.youtube.com

You can find the lyrics underneath the video which I find very soothing and empowering.

Thanks for visiting

Music Monday: Luka ~ Suzanne Vega

Today’s Song about abuse is Suzanne Vega’s Luka.

I always loved the song. It has a easy going melody which is such  a contrast to what it is about. Most of the lyrics always spoke to me even when my English was not as good. It shows so much about the way how abused children and teenagers try to hide what is really going on their lives. It hurts one way to hear it said in a song but it is also a relieve to realise that there is a pattern and you are not alone.

I think it is one of the best.

thanks for the video to LyricWatch via http://www.youtube.com

The thing with “forgiving”

Well I wrote yesterday that I have counselling but it actually is another Cognitive-Behavioural-Therapy just this time face to face. I have decided to work on my self-harming tendencies (biting my lips and the skin on my thumbs) and also on my panik-attacks.

I will write more about my first session later on next week it is just too late today but one thing struck me today. My homework is to be mindful of when I start biting, what I think in this moment and what I feel. Today I had many situations where I did it and at one point I was thinking about the fact that I do not really love my body. It has caused me so much pain and trouble that it is hard to be loving with it.

But I believe in the wholeness of body~mind~soul and that a unhealthy body only causes trouble for mind and soul as well. So I am determined to change my attitude to my body. I also thought that I probably have to forgive my body for reacting in certain ways to the abuse and still reacting. That might be even more difficult than forgiving the abuser.

and a newbie…..

A warm hello to “thelionthatroared” who just followed a few minutes ago.

Great to have you here and thank you for following

thanks for the picture to Thumbling via ookaboo.com

A warm hello to all my followers

After months blogging on wordpress I figured out how to find my followers at last.

So here is a belated “Hello” to janpat862, Imorgana, Jeannie Davis, halfwaybeteweenthegutter, Angel of Secrets, Bongo & Pastor16 and a big THANKS for following my blog.

Be blessed and have a great day and weekend!

Today’s the day….

…. after waiting for about two years I have more counselling at last. I had one appointment with the lady last year in April to figure out what I need but it is such a long time ago that things have changed a lot.

I will focus on my self-harming tendencies and also my reactions at work with that bully. I would like to be capable of saying “no” without freaking. Well I keep you updated.

update

It has been a long week. My last day off was last Friday and my next day off will be tomorrow. It has been a tough week as well as I had to get my balance back due to the bully situation at work. He leaves me alone and I do not have to work there but it still lingers somehow in my presence.

Have also been acutely aware of my self-harming behaviour. My whole mouth is sore inside as I bite away on my lips and I also bite the tips of my thumbs. Strangely that always seems to be more when I just came out of a difficult situation and feel more balanced again.  I wonder more and more about why that is and why I just can not get a grip on it.

I think that is what I want to work on in the counselling: Fight the self-harming tendencies and learn to set boundaries without freaking.  I had to wait since last April for this appointment and all in all I have been trying to get counselling for 2 1/2 years.

You know if you break your leg and you would have to wait for 2 1/2 years for help everyone would be appalled. But if you have broken your soul waiting for 2 years does seem to be normal. But it has as bad health implications as the broken leg. Maybe even more.

Well I will not worry about that now. I will concentrate on getting on with my healing!!!

Wordless Wednesday Award: Daffodil Rites

This is the blog of a very strong and courageous person!!!!! Daffodil Rites

Wordless Wednesday

A new year a new Award. Well not entirely new but I would like to spread the Award and inspiring blogs and pages for survivors and thrivers:

All of you who want to can give a Wordless Wednesday Award to a Blog or Page that is inspiring and helpful for healing from abuse. You can either chose my picture or a picture of your own. Please send me an email here to send your link and I put it up on this page with all the other links.

Well this is my 2012 ~ experiment! Please help me to make it a success ~ Thank you very much!!!

You Tube Tuesday: committedtofreedom ~ how kids cope with abuse…..

 

Originating at Its Tiger Time, You Tube Tuesday is a day set aside for sharing your favorite video.  Feel free to join in and let’s have fun seeing how creative us bloggers can be!  Each month Josh will highlight a selected video and present the “You Tube Tuesday” Award.  If you participate, please remember to leave your link in the Linky Tool that is available at his page.

This is a very good video about the effects of abuse and how children deal with it

thanks for the video to committedtofreedom via http://www.youtube.com

 

Music Monday: “Breaking the silence” Janis Ian

I found this really strong song about breaking the silence about abuse.

The song shows many sentence that just express how it is to break the silence and also the reality of abuse like ”come into my solitude” or “Fathers who are lovers to the daughters that they own”.

This last one struck me especially as that is exactly how my father treated me: he owned me ~ I was just a gadget for him ready to use when ever he pleased. It is striking how simple Janis Ian puts those realities!

Thanks for this song  to http://creativefolk.com/abusesongs.html#songs